Welp, it's come to an end. Today is officially my last day as a pregnant woman. Tomorrow at 7:30am, Cal will be on his way out and I will no longer have this enormous belly in front of me.
Today was spent on a cleaning frenzy. Jason and I sent Jack to daycare this morning to keep up his routine and I had a long list of things to complete. Laundry, take out the trash, change the beds, etc. I wanted to get everything clean so I didn't have to worry about a thing once we got home from the hospital. By 1:00 I had completed all the things on my list and then some. Jason and I both decided to lay down and take a nap. I figure it's probably the last time we will have this opportunity so take advantage. Amazingly enough, I actually slept.
I pick up Jack in 45 minutes and I can't help but be emotional. Tonight he is spending the night at Nana's and I will be childless. It's the last night for him as an only child. Am I doing a disservice to him by bringing another baby into the world and taking a lot of the attention from him?
Last night, I got teary-eyed as I was putting him to bed. I smelled his sweet hair as I was reading him bedtime stories. I wouldn't be doing this routine for a while. Not only because I will be in the hospital but I won't be able to lift him for a little while after I give birth.
Everything yesterday was a "last". Last time feeding him dinner for a while. Last time snuggling and reading books while he was warm in his footie pajamas. Last time kissing him before bed. Last time sleeping in and nestling together at 5am.
I will try and keep my mind occupied tonight. My doctor approved me to take some other the counter sleeping pills tonight. I will be taking them around 7:00 to ensure that I am very drowsy and actually get to sleep. I need to get up at 4am to be out the door at 5:15. I plan on shaving, doing my hair nice and actually putting on some makeup so I feel a little more put together when I give birth. I look back on my photos the last time and cringe. Even if I cry off all my makeup, at least I will have made the effort! I know it sounds like a ridiculous routine but hey, it's what will get me through the morning.
A bummer? I have to fast after midnight. No water and nothing to eat. That means I won't be able to enjoy my morning cup of coffee! Eeek! No worries. As soon as I am able, I plan on making Jason run to Starbucks across the street and get me a cup.
Jason and Lynn will be with me all day tomorrow. Although Lynn needs to leave at 3:30 to pick up Jack, I will have a good support system at the hospital with me.
I will update my blog after Cal is born but I am not sure when. Obviously I will need to recover from anesthesia for a while. It might be a couple hours or even a whole day. It really depends on how I feel. And more importantly, I will be calling all the immediate family members first. They deserve phone calls before the rest of the internet world is updated.
Wish me luck! Calvin will be here before I know it!