Monday, January 9, 2012

Last Day Pregnant

Welp, it's come to an end.  Today is officially my last day as a pregnant woman.  Tomorrow at 7:30am, Cal will be on his way out and I will no longer have this enormous belly in front of me.

Today was spent on a cleaning frenzy.  Jason and I sent Jack to daycare this morning to keep up his routine and I had a long list of things to complete.  Laundry, take out the trash, change the beds, etc.  I wanted to get everything clean so I didn't have to worry about a thing once we got home from the hospital.  By 1:00 I had completed all the things on my list and then some.  Jason and I both decided to lay down and take a nap.  I figure it's probably the last time we will have this opportunity so take advantage.  Amazingly enough, I actually slept.

I pick up Jack in 45 minutes and I can't help but be emotional.  Tonight he is spending the night at Nana's and I will be childless.  It's the last night for him as an only child.  Am I doing a disservice to him by bringing another baby into the world and taking a lot of the attention from him?

Last night, I got teary-eyed as I was putting him to bed.  I smelled his sweet hair as I was reading him bedtime stories.  I wouldn't be doing this routine for a while.  Not only because I will be in the hospital but I won't be able to lift him for a little while after I give birth. 

Everything yesterday was a "last".  Last time feeding him dinner for a while.  Last time snuggling and reading books while he was warm in his footie pajamas.  Last time kissing him before bed.  Last time sleeping in and nestling together at 5am. 

I will try and keep my mind occupied tonight.  My doctor approved me to take some other the counter sleeping pills tonight.  I will be taking them around 7:00 to ensure that I am very drowsy and actually get to sleep.  I need to get up at 4am to be out the door at 5:15.  I plan on shaving, doing my hair nice and actually putting on some makeup so I feel a little more put together when I give birth.  I look back on my photos the last time and cringe.  Even if I cry off all my makeup, at least I will have made the effort!  I know it sounds like a ridiculous routine but hey, it's what will get me through the morning.

A bummer?  I have to fast after midnight.  No water and nothing to eat.  That means I won't be able to enjoy my morning cup of coffee!  Eeek!  No worries.  As soon as I am able, I plan on making Jason run to Starbucks across the street and get me a cup.

Jason and Lynn will be with me all day tomorrow.  Although Lynn needs to leave at 3:30 to pick up Jack, I will have a good support system at the hospital with me. 

I will update my blog after Cal is born but I am not sure when.  Obviously I will need to recover from anesthesia for a while.  It might be a couple hours or even a whole day.  It really depends on how I feel.  And more importantly, I will be calling all the immediate family members first.  They deserve phone calls before the rest of the internet world is updated. 

Wish me luck!  Calvin will be here before I know it!

2 comments:

  1. Good luck!!! I am sure Jack will love having a brother :). I can't wait to hear all about little Cal!

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