Funky Town

I am sure you have noticed my blog hiatus.  I have been staying away because I haven't been feeling well.  Most of it is stress related and some of it is general feeling sorry for myself.  I have been in a funk.  Ever since my family got sick over Christmas, I haven't quite recovered and have picked up some other maladies.

This post might get a little gross for some, so if you are easily yucked out, stop reading.

After I had that gross cold, I got a sinus infection.  I didn't even have a regular doctor so I had to find one quickly and get an appointment so I could get a prescription.  I had never had a sinus infection before and stupidly thought you took medicine and they go away.  Not the case for me.  I took one round of Augmentin and seemed to be better.  My infection was in a weird spot in my sinuses (or so my doctor told me) and it didn't go away.  I had to take another round of Augmentin.  It still didn't go away.  After another visit with my doctor, I had two options:  Wait it out and hope it gets better, or run to the nearest ENT and get drained.

Hell no.  I decided to wait it out.  The thought of having a scope inserted up my nose and being drained freaked me out.  I waited and eventually, it got better.  Thankfully.  But now I have a new cold.  Let's hope it doesn't turn into another sinus infection.

In the meantime, I developed this weird rash on my hands.  It started on the palms of my hands and it looked like tiny little water blisters.  I Dr. Googled and self-diagnosed myself with eczema.  Since the rash was incredibly itchy and starting to spread to my fingers, I went to the dermatologist.  He did confirm I had this form of eczema.  Interesting note: This form of eczema is brought on by stress.  I didn't feel overly stressed but apparently it was my body's way of showing the signs of stress.

I got a prescription for a gnarly steroid cream.  Thankfully it works really well but every few days I get a new batch of the blisters and I have to start over with the cream.  Last week I had the worst outbreak since this all started.  I couldn't even move my fingers because it was between the fingers and was incredibly painful.

Another fun thing that has come up is digestive issues.  At first I thought it was a side effect of my Augmentin but after two weeks of constant running to the bathroom 12 times a day, I decided it wasn't the antibiotics.

I am convinced I have IBS but I haven't been to the doctor to verify.  I am embarrassed and don't even know what I would say.  "Hi, I have been shitting a lot, can you help me?".  Gross.  Instead, I have been taking a ton of probiotics and things that help aid good digestion.  It has gotten better but there are definitely some days where it's worse than others.

I am generally a very healthy person so all of these illnesses, while minor, have really gotten me down.  I want to go running but can't because my stomach immediately starts rumbling and I have to poop.  I want to get more sleep and feel human again but I know that is not going to happen.

Woe is me right?  People in the world have way more issues so I need to suck it up. But, the last few weeks have been mentally and physically draining.

On top of all of this, Cal is facing a Failure to Thrive diagnosis.  I will talk a little more about that later, maybe not.  It depends on how I feel.  He has an appointment on the 26th for a weight check and we will know more than.  I can't tell you how awful this makes me feel as a mom.  I feel like the biggest failure on earth and like I am failing my child.