I am sure you have noticed my blog hiatus. I have been staying away because I haven't been feeling well. Most of it is stress related and some of it is general feeling sorry for myself. I have been in a funk. Ever since my family got sick over Christmas, I haven't quite recovered and have picked up some other maladies.
This post might get a little gross for some, so if you are easily yucked out, stop reading.
After I had that gross cold, I got a sinus infection. I didn't even have a regular doctor so I had to find one quickly and get an appointment so I could get a prescription. I had never had a sinus infection before and stupidly thought you took medicine and they go away. Not the case for me. I took one round of Augmentin and seemed to be better. My infection was in a weird spot in my sinuses (or so my doctor told me) and it didn't go away. I had to take another round of Augmentin. It still didn't go away. After another visit with my doctor, I had two options: Wait it out and hope it gets better, or run to the nearest ENT and get drained.
Hell no. I decided to wait it out. The thought of having a scope inserted up my nose and being drained freaked me out. I waited and eventually, it got better. Thankfully. But now I have a new cold. Let's hope it doesn't turn into another sinus infection.
In the meantime, I developed this weird rash on my hands. It started on the palms of my hands and it looked like tiny little water blisters. I Dr. Googled and self-diagnosed myself with eczema. Since the rash was incredibly itchy and starting to spread to my fingers, I went to the dermatologist. He did confirm I had this form of eczema. Interesting note: This form of eczema is brought on by stress. I didn't feel overly stressed but apparently it was my body's way of showing the signs of stress.
I got a prescription for a gnarly steroid cream. Thankfully it works really well but every few days I get a new batch of the blisters and I have to start over with the cream. Last week I had the worst outbreak since this all started. I couldn't even move my fingers because it was between the fingers and was incredibly painful.
Another fun thing that has come up is digestive issues. At first I thought it was a side effect of my Augmentin but after two weeks of constant running to the bathroom 12 times a day, I decided it wasn't the antibiotics.
I am convinced I have IBS but I haven't been to the doctor to verify. I am embarrassed and don't even know what I would say. "Hi, I have been shitting a lot, can you help me?". Gross. Instead, I have been taking a ton of probiotics and things that help aid good digestion. It has gotten better but there are definitely some days where it's worse than others.
I am generally a very healthy person so all of these illnesses, while minor, have really gotten me down. I want to go running but can't because my stomach immediately starts rumbling and I have to poop. I want to get more sleep and feel human again but I know that is not going to happen.
Woe is me right? People in the world have way more issues so I need to suck it up. But, the last few weeks have been mentally and physically draining.
On top of all of this, Cal is facing a Failure to Thrive diagnosis. I will talk a little more about that later, maybe not. It depends on how I feel. He has an appointment on the 26th for a weight check and we will know more than. I can't tell you how awful this makes me feel as a mom. I feel like the biggest failure on earth and like I am failing my child.