Friday, March 19, 2010

I'm Scared

I am not sure if this is normal but I am absolutely terrified of SIDS. I worry every day (and pray that it won't happen) that something is going to happen to Jack. Sometimes, the fear literally paralyzes me. I am pretty sure it's unhealthy to worry as much as I do.

I know SIDS is pretty uncommon and I know that we are doing everything right in terms of preventing SIDS, but I am still scared.

I cannot imagine my life without Jack. I can't even think or fathom what I would do if something happened to him.

Sorry for the morbid post. Maybe it's because my brother died when I was younger and I know that life can change in an instant. Maybe it's because I am a mom and worry is normal.

I don't think I will stop worrying until the SIDS risk is gone (after 4 months generally). After that, there is a whole new crop of worries.

2 comments:

  1. that sounds like me... every day i think about it... i wish i didnt but its scary! sometimes i cant sleep cuz i worry about her and every night i wake up constantly to make sure shes still breathing!

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  2. I think it's completely normal for moms to worry about this- I know I would. I worked with someone who had triplets and one of them passed away from SIDS- it was so hard for her to talk about. :(

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